I know I want to start loving myself, that's very important to me -- more so than my weight (which is healthy, at this moment in time).
I also know I want to start eating healthy things, not purging, and not feeling terrible after. But I have no idea how to do this without gaining a substantial amount of weight... well to be honest, I'm even at a loss as to what "healthy" means anymore.
So I guess what I'm asking is if any of you wonderful people could point me in the direction of where I could find out what it means to love myself, and where I could better understand a balanced diet. Any help at all would be greatly appreciated -- as I said, I'm completely lost. I don't know the first steps to this whole thing called "recovery".