I am under the impression, somehow, that my body holds calories. This has nothing to do with my metabolism being fucked up from bingeing/starving/restricting/whatever. Somehow, that I am different and the only body that doesn't know how to properly handle calories. I feel like I am the only one whose body changes daily. It's also the scale, I know about water retention, dehydration, etc. But I feel like I am different.
Does this make any sense? Like, I can't lose weight by eating 15oo calories a day & working out. For me, I feel like, it just wouldn't work. Because my body is...different...
Does anyone else have a clue what I mean? Anyone else feel like this? Is this because I have issues with food? Or do 'normal' people feel this way...that their bodies change from day to day?
I think it may be partly scale based, as I see the number & automatically label the day as a 'fat' day or what have you. But I was recently in Italy for a month without a scale & I still felt the same way...depending on the day before & what I ate/didn't eat, I could 'see' a difference. If I ate, I was (am) sure that the carbs and fat had attatched themselves to various parts of my body. And that they don't leave, ever.
Anyone? Or am I totally insane?