ohisntshecool (ohisntshecool) wrote in ed_ucate,
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is it just me...?

I've been noticed lately...after I get on the scale, count my calories, or whatever, that I have the impression that I am different. Different in the sense that I think my body, just my body, is fucked up. I watch other people eat crap, or eat healthy or whatever and they don't change from day to day. On the other hand, I feel that if I don't eat for a day, the next day, I see a difference. Small, but a difference. If I eat, or binge, I think I can see it, in my face, my stomach, my thighs.

I am under the impression, somehow, that my body holds calories. This has nothing to do with my metabolism being fucked up from bingeing/starving/restricting/whatever. Somehow, that I am different and the only body that doesn't know how to properly handle calories. I feel like I am the only one whose body changes daily. It's also the scale, I know about water retention, dehydration, etc. But I feel like I am different.

Does this make any sense? Like, I can't lose weight by eating 15oo calories a day & working out. For me, I feel like, it just wouldn't work. Because my body is...different...

Does anyone else have a clue what I mean? Anyone else feel like this? Is this because I have issues with food? Or do 'normal' people feel this way...that their bodies change from day to day?

I think it may be partly scale based, as I see the number & automatically label the day as a 'fat' day or what have you. But I was recently in Italy for a month without a scale & I still felt the same way...depending on the day before & what I ate/didn't eat, I could 'see' a difference. If I ate, I was (am) sure that the carbs and fat had attatched themselves to various parts of my body. And that they don't leave, ever.

Anyone? Or am I totally insane?
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