under guilt/shame it says 'no one will accept me (at a) higher weight & b/w thinking stands for black and white thinking. bingeing/purging leads to guilt and shame which leads to no exercise or overexercise or restricting/dieting which leads to stress feelings which leads to negative self-thoughts and bingeing and purging. at the very bottom of the chart she has written, 'ED tries to fix food/food behaviors rather than real problems.' this totally made a lightbulb go off in my head.
she asked me to challenge black and white thinking.
she asked me to challenge what really is broken.
she asked me to consider how i need to take care of myself to be fulfilled.
she identified that i personally have reached this point: 'i'm bingeing because i'm tired. i want to stay up and do fulfilling things but i need to go to bed because i'm tired.' when we're tired, we go to carbs.
i need to be able to say, 'this is where i'm at and i'm sad.' instead of bingeing and saying 'screw it.'
i need to validate my feelings.
for those of you who've been interested in purchasing my book of fiction about characters with eating disorders, you can now do so again... it will come with a different colored cover (burgundy) and with the new material included. here are some excerpts. price is $15 (it's long) and you can paypal me directly at dbrandon at artic dot edu. global customers (i'm in the US) will need to add $4 for shipping/handling. i have not updated my web site to reflect this yet (will be doing this in the next few days), which is why you'd have to paypal me directly. books will ship within four business days of your order.