I have an eating disorder, and I've never lost or gained a significant amount of weight, not more than 10 or 15 pounds. But every time I lose it seems I lose mostly from my boobs and they get a lot smaller and every time I gain it back it's all or mostly in my thighs. I don't know if this is what is actually happening, or if it's just my perception, because I don't know if this is possible. But it seems to be and it's very frustrating. It's like every time I go through these cycles my boobs get smaller and my thighs and hips get huger.
And I'm on the verge of relapsing again but terrified if I lose a lot of weight I'll lose all my boobs and when I gain it back it'll be all or mostly in my thighs/hips and be flatchested.
I guess I just want to know what you guys think/know about this, any information or anything. If this is possible, if there's anything I can do to stop it? Because it's really frustrating, and really, just makes my body image much worse.
(Please don't just answer in regards to what I can do to stop it just to eat normally.)
If anyone could help me out with some answers to this I'd be extremely grateful.
I'm not asking for eating disorder help or anything, just if this is possible and what's going on and what I can do.