Reckless Kelly (shiningstar55) wrote in ed_ucate,
Reckless Kelly

Does anyone else have issues with restricting your sleep?  I think about sleep all the time in the way I used to think about eating when my ED was out of hand the most-- the "I'm not worthy of the same amount as everyone else," "how could I spend the time sleeping (or eating) when I could be using that time to do something else that's more useful," and "if I can do the same amount as everyone else, and maybe more, with less resources, THEN and only then will I be worthy of like." 
I sleep only a few hours a night on average and it's really taking a toll on me, mentally and physically, but I can't make myself get more sleep.  It just feels WRONG, like I'm awarding myself some luxury that I don't deserve. 

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