I don't have an eating disorder per se, I have just always had trouble eating due to anxiety, off and on throughout my life. It's been really bad for the past two weeks, and my main problem is that I feel nauseous most of the time, and that makes it really hard for me to eat. I keep trying to eat, but every time I try it seems like I just can't seem to eat enough food before I start feeling tired of eating or feeling like I'm going to throw up. And then I stop eating and start feeling dizzy and nauseous and headachey and sort of suicidal. I'm on antidepressants that are supposed to stimulate my appetite, and they did at first when I started taking them, but along with making me feel apathetic about a lot of stuff, I think they're kind of making me apathetic about eating too.
I'm just wondering if anybody here has any advice on how to eat healthily after not eating much for an extended period of time, and how to GET FULL. I just want one meal where I feel full and okay and not like my brain is going to leak out my skull. I'm so miserable right now, all I want to do is be able to eat.