MamaCheshire (cheshire23) wrote in ed_ucate,


[I promise this isn't an April Fool's post!]

Age: 27

Gender: Female

Height: 5'11"

Weight: 246 pre-pregnancy, 256 currently (18 weeks pregnant), 262 highest non-pregnant weight.

BMI: 34.3 pre-pregnancy

ED: No "active" ED at this point, but a long past history of Binge Eating Disorder.

Diagnosed/Self-diagnosed?: Self-diagnosed - as in, while reading something online about EDs because I have a cousin who was treated for anorexia, I saw the BED criteria, gave it a LOT of thought, and realized "Yes, I do that. That's me!" while feeling shamed and relieved all at the same time.

[EDIT to add criteria]:

[1] Do you eat more food in a binge than most people would eat in the same amount of time? Yes (see rant below for example).
[2] Do you lose control during the binge episode? Yes, it feels that way.
[3] You don't compensate (purge/lax/fast) for these binges? I very rarely compensate by exercise, but the vast majority of binges go uncompensated.
[4] Have you been binging at least twice a week for six months? It's slowed/stopped since last fall, but before that I was binging at least 3-4 times a week (and often every day) for the past 3 years.

My biggest pet peeve about ED communities: "OMG I had such a horrible binge !!!!1111oneoneone! I can't believe I ATE A WHOLE BANANA!" That probably irritates me about as much as the wanarexics of my size irritate those who are actually anorexic. A banana is NOT a binge. Three bananas, a large dish of ice cream, and maybe throw in half a bag of pretzels for good measure - that's more like a binge.

How I found my way here: interest search for "binge eating disorder".

Questions/comments/concerns: Oddly enough, finding out that what I was doing could be defined as an eating disorder helped me stop doing it. The trouble is, I made the most progress with this "self-recovery" (if you want to call it that) in the three months or so before finding out that I was pregnant. Now I *have* to eat what has come to seem like way too much food, get used to weight gain being a positive thing rather than the bane of my existence, et cetera.


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