June 28th, 2005

bongwater (__sixteen__)

um.

Yesterday I heard that Splenda raises insulin levels. Wtf?
It makes sense, since it's made with sugar and all, but still... Wtf man!!!

(oh, my boyfriend works at vitamin shoppe -- he's been learning all kinds of things working there, and he passed that on to me, knowing my fixation with artificial sweetners)
talking on the fone

(no subject)

has anyone ever think that being in a relationship make you binge and purge more??
in my opinion, since i've been in relationship..
i quit clubbing..( which i used to go all the time and that made me dance and burn more calories)..
i quit dating a lot of guys in the same time ( which is called "fun" for me and keep me distracted from eating )..
i like dressing up for going out clubbing which i spent a lot of times picking my clothes or going out shopping

instead all i do when i'm in relationship
i stay at home waiting for my boyfriend to come and cook for him( apparently i have to eat too)
i rent a lot of dvd and watch with my bf with snack during movies ( eat again)
i can't go out at night, so bored at home ( eat again)


so basicly, everything is involved with eating and eating and eating..the more i'm at home being good girlfriend..the more bordom i get..the more i eat..the more i purge

but i still love him so much tho
how can i change this???