September 23rd, 2005

RE Jewelry

To all those who suffer: Read this

Hey everyone! I recently joined this community and noticed this post.

I'm saddened to hear how many of you feel full recovery does not exist. I am here to beg to differ.

I was in the depths of an eating disorder for three years. I had
severe anorexia nervosa and was rushed to a treatment center in
Arizona, completely across the country for me.  Everyone thought I was going to die.   I was there three
months. After my stay there I went through a grueling recovery
process. I recovered and relapsed, recovered and relapsed.
I swore up and down that recovery was something that wasn't
possible. I said my eating disorder was something I'd always
have, if just a little. It bothered me and bothered me. My
eating disorder was always in my head, telling me what to do and eat
and feel. I learned to live very well with my e.d., accomodating
for it and making excuses for it. I told everyone I was fine when
in reality I was living with another being inside my head, dominating
my actions and goals.

Then one day it just.... stopped.

I can't explain it.

All I know is that for every person out there with an e.d., there is a
full recovery. Your therapist may say it isn't out there, but
they're wrong. The thoughts CAN go away, you CAN move on with
your lives. I know now it seems like they have full power over
you, but it is possible to take that power back. Hope is
there. Never lose it.

Those who say full recovery does not exist simply have not yet experienced it for themselves.

Ask your questions, I'm very open about my recovery process.
Food / Lemon
  • naatz

(no subject)

This is something I found in another community, and it's so real that it hurts.

Forgive me the grammar mistakes, but I translated it from Hebrew, and the style was rather unique as it is. :)


Do you remember the time when your disorder began?
Was it easy to make the switch between 'life' and 'survival'?
Was it easy to change your habits?

Even now, to get back from 'survival' to 'life' you have to go through a process that isn't easy nor simple, but a process of change, of building, of gathering yourself.

So it's difficult.
And there's all the space for this difficulty.
Because you're going in your own footsteps but backwards,
you fell into the disorder and now you climb this mountain and put it behind you.

It's easier to build than ruin - it's known. And it's felt.
So you had your reasons to adopt these habits of this disease, and they cheered you up and made you stronger.
"Yes, You don't eat and you become thinner"
Well, now during the process of healing, you have reasons to strengthen and comfort you;
Your health.
Your smile. [tell me if you need more reasons]

Are you tired?
It's great. It means that you're using your energies, that you're f-i-g-h-t-i-n-g.
Now, which way are you fighting towards?
Are you dealing with it? Are you cooperating with the treatment? Avoiding binges?

There are results.
Just to keep doing the things you do
And slowly you'll begin to find the connection between your world and other people's.