November 11th, 2005

A b/p session = getting turned on?

Well, hi there. My name's Katina, I'm 19 and I'm in recovery from Bulimia. I posted something similar in in_treatment, and I was told to ask the same question here, in hopes that more women will be able to help me or at least make me feel not so alone and messed up.

So here we go. When I used to binge, I would get very, very turned on. I would get the usual funny butterfly feelings and my lady parts would wake up and be like, "Hey there! How YOU doin'?" And then, 9 times out of 10, after I would vomit, I would find myself to be erm.. lubricated. Now please don't get me wrong and think that I was bulimic because I'm some crazy fetishist and that I like being thrown up on or something. This whole bit never started happening until I was about four months into being a full-fledged bulimic, and they continued for the next few years until I got help when I was 17.

So has this ever happened to anybody, or can someone give me some insight as to why it happened to me? The best I can come up with was that the b/p gave me such a rush of excitement, and I knew in my head that I wasn't supposed to be eating and I wasn't supposed to be throwing it up, but I did it anyway, and this maybe corresponded to my body physically getting turned on because of the taboo that I placed upon myself? I'm not really sure, to be honest, which is why I'm here.

Anyway yes, feedback? Please tell me I'm not a crazy, psychotic person with a subconscious affinity for sexualizing vomit. :(
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I've put ALOT of hot sauce, hot chili peppers, basically anything really spicey, sometimes on the food I eat. My mouth is burning for at least 15 to 30 min. depending on how much hot crap I put on it. So if I had chips to say soup, it would be mostly red from the hot sauce. Then the acid reflux starts up pretty bad -doesnt help that I have acid reflux disease-.
This, along with throwing up have made the corners of my mouth open a bit. It's almost unnoticable if your not up close. They used to heal, but after repeating this constantly it stopped healing.

My point is, has anyone else done this?
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News article on hormones - add to memories, please!

"FAT-LOSS HORMONE FOUND"
Source: Dose.ca

Thursday, November 10, 2005


Can’t fit through the rat cage door? Obese rats of the world, rejoice. Scientists have developed a hormone that when injected can cut a rat’s appetite in half.

The new-found hormone, named obestatin, offers hope, scientists say, of battling the obesity epidemic in humans as well. Scientists discovered the hormone while experimenting with another one named ghrelin, which stimulates hunger. They discovered even when they removed the ghrelin, their subjects’ appetites were unaffected. That is when they discovered that the same gene that produces ghrelin produces obestatin, an appetite supressor.

In contrast to ghrelin, which causes hyperphagia (overeating) and obesity in rats, obestatin appears to act as an "anorexic hormone" by decreasing food intake and slowing "gastric emptying" — meaning food stays in the stomach longer, according to the study, published in today’s issue of the journal Science.

Obestatin also slowed muscle contraction in the gut. “If your intestines do not really move adequately, you feel full,” lead author Jian Zhang, a professor of reproductive biology at Stanford University School of Medicine told reporters during a teleconference this week.

After eight days of treatment, adult male rats injected with a synthetic version of obestatin ate about half as much as the untreated ones and lost 20 per cent of their body weight, or about one gram.

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I dunno about those rat-testings, folks.