March 25th, 2006

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purging girls at restaurant

Hi Everyone,

This is my first post here. I plan on posting an introduction of myself. This just happened last night and it was frustrating. I didn't know what to do.

I always run into people with eds, people purging, etc. It has been one year since I have purged. Purging is still really hard not to do. The urge is very strong. I also have bad reflux so everything comes up naturally - very disgusting.

Anyway, I have just started eating in some restaurants (safe ones of course) with Jim (my fiance). Because of the UTI I really had to go to the bathroom. I was having a really hard time that night and really wanted to purge. As I was walking to the bathroom (I promised Jim that I wouldn't purge), two girls stepped in front of me. They were in their early 30s. One said, "I can't wait until we get home." The other one said, "me either". I knew what they were going to do. Well, we all went to the bathroom. They weren't very good at purging - they made a lot of noise and still had gag refluxes (from the sound of things - you know how you can tell). I really, really wanted to "join in", but I didn't. I promised Jim. I waited until they got done. One at a time they came out of the stall with watery eyes, red faces and vomit on their hands. When they were both done and out of the stalls, I said, "Please get help now. This is nothing to mess with. Vomiting is not something to do to try to lose weight or because you ate too much. It is a very deadly disease. I have been diagnosed with anorexia since I was 14. It is pure hell. Please get help now." I had also written down on a sticky note (I carry them everywhere) the name of a place that treats eds here. My T is 1 1/2 hours away and not taking any new pts. I hope that they get help. I kept trying to tell them and really get it through them that this is a very deadly disease. It is not something to do to lose a few pounds. It will only get worse and worse. I talked with them for 5-10 minutes. I didn't know what else to do. I hate to see people going through this. Other people just don't realize how bad this really is until it is too late and they are sick. Take care!

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