April 3rd, 2006


This may be a tough subject to discuss because it’s something anyone with a conscience will be ashamed to admit to themselves, let alone to others. But I sadly have to admit that ever since my eating disorder started, over the years my lying capabilities have grown. The ease at which I can blatantly lie to people – whether strangers or family/friends, is startling. I’m really embarrassed by this because I know I am a “good” person, I have morals, I’m kind, considerate and very caring and love my friends and family.

This behaviour I’m pretty sure started primarily by lying (as many people with EDs do) to people about how much/what/where/what time I was eating. I would do things like carry around empty food wrappers and pretend I’d just eaten it, lie that I’d already eaten supper etc…etc….But then these little lies turned into bigger ones. I’ve found myself lying about all kinds of things – completely unrelated to food – eg. What I’m doing/where I’m going/why I can’t do something - I make up complete lies to my friends about what fun things I’ve been up to. I can stand in front of someone, tell them a complete lie about something, without feeling flushed or the typical emotions one would normally get when telling someone a lie. Noone’s questioned this behaviour – people honestly, totally believe me – because they see me as an honest person. It’s difficult to explain, but I’m pretty certain this behaviour has developed through my ED into my actual way of living, it’s certainly not something I’ve been taught or encouraged to do, but I believe simply because I “let” myself tell small lies, primarily about food intake, this “acceptance” of allowing myself to tell small lies, has escalated into a common trait. I seem to have this ability to “erase” guilt from lying from my mind.

Does anyone else feel they are more deceitful due to their ED? Does it get you down?

(no subject)

So I came across this article on-line


Collapse )

What do you guys think should be done to better assist those with the binge/purge form of anorexia? Do you feel ignored if you are a binge/purge anorexic (I get annoyed whenever I read something along the lines of people digesting 50% of the food they binge on because if it were true I wouldn't be anywhere near anorexic- basically the text book is telling me my problem doesn't exist)

Really any comments are welcome, I just found this interesting.