May 29th, 2006

Embarassing?

I've come across something recently, and I'm not sure if its just me being neurotic, or what. But ladies (and gentlemen) do you ever find yourself embarassed to buy food in a public place? Like, if people see you carrying the food around, they're going to think "wow, she really doesn't need that" or something similar?" I'm pretty broke as of right now, so all I have been eating at work is POTATO CHIPS and things out of the vending machines. First of all, wtf. But second, I'm always afraid my coworkers are looking at me thinking what a fat pig I am, and how I probably shouldn't be eating it. Maybe it's my own fear of eating, and shame and guilt  that comes with it manifesting itself. But does anyone else do this?


EDIT: Thank you all for your comments and sharing so openly! This community is great!
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This post is going to sound completley ridiclous but this question was triggered but reading a thread of comments in another community about making fun of/talking about the ''Ana Goddess'' haha

Now for this incredibley boring stupid question:

There was a post recently about how some of you basically hallucinate after you haven't eaten for awhile.

Well, for the people who do hallucinate, do you believe that maybe serious cases of hallucinating people actually have an altered state of conscience where their is an actual 'Ana God', so to speak, that they talk to, or image, and that they believe really helps with them to continue on their path?

Maybe people don't even have to hallucinate, and they just really believe in this higher power that really 'helps' them.

Any thoughs? (and i do realize how stupid this sounds. i'm sorry haha)