Originally posted in my blog
. We did this exercise in group. We each made our own list of things that we were working on changing. It helps you to identify where you might want to put more effort. And not because it's low in any of the scales, but rather where you are most willing and able. For example, I have successfully kicked the weighing habit. I even refused to have the doctor's office weigh me the last time I was there.
Willingness to change
What do I want to change? How motivated am I? How willing am I? What do I think my chances of success are?
|-||no more binging||7||5||5|
|-||no more restricting*||10||8||10|
|-||keep food log||5||1||5|
|-||stop weighing myself ||10||9||10|
*No More Restricting
Why is my willingness to stop an 8 and not a 10? I still want to lose weight.
Why isn't my willing to stop restricting a 5? Restricting leads to binging, leads to purging behaviors, leads to restricting, leads to binging, and unending spiral into the black depths of the eating disorder.
Why is my willingness a 5 and not a 7? Still want to lose weight, still kinda like feeling hungry and the sense of power that gives me. I want my willingness to be higher, but it isn't.
Why not a 3? 3/2 keeps me from restricting and keeps me healthy.
The stop weighing one is interesting. I think a year ago my motivation would have been a 3, my willingness a 1, and my success a 1. It's nice to see some progress and gains from all this work.