December 12th, 2006

crazyeye kid


I know there's been discussion recently about loss of hearing, acid reflux, hypoglycemia, etc, but just in general, what ill effects have you noticed on your body that could be a direct result of your ED?

I just found out my cholesterol's gone up 70 points in the past year and a half, which is ironic as I've been a vegetarian for four years and was a vegan for the first two. I know mine is partially hereditary, but I've heard anorexia can also cause a rise in cholesterol (as it diminishes the 'good' cholesterol and throws off the ratio of HDL/LDL). I'm also severely iron-deficient anemic which is, obviously, diet-related. I've also got poor circulation, low concentration, heart palpitations/irregular heartbeat, amennorhea, headaches, low energy, mood swings, and probably more I can't think of off the top of my head.

This is kind of strange for me as I've always been in good health, given the circumstances. (My disordered eating began as a way to eat only 'pure' foods and small meals from each food group, later progressing into not eating/binge eating.) Stupidly enough, I've caught myself wishing either for: (1) a reason to not eat or lose weight (like bad flu), or (2) a reason to just eat better (like risky cholesterol) so that I don't just binge on junk food every day and call it a meal. At one point I really didn't care whether or not I encountered health risks due to my behavior; I guess I just kind of figured it wouldn't happen to me, and if it did, then I'd stop. I guess now I'm a little worried about my health, but am still scared that having to legitimately eat healthier will just lead me down the same road I started on, since I have trouble finding a balance between healthy and obsessive. I'm also worried a week from now this won't even matter to me and I will be back to doing what I was doing before.

I apologize if this hasn't been very clear but I'm having trouble wording what I want to say. I guess I will just ask a simple question, and let it go from there:

What health problem(s) have you personally encountered as an effect of your eating disorder, and has this had any effect on your behavior?