December 23rd, 2006

the begining

I was diagnosed with ED NOS when I was a senior in high school. My weight dropped to the point that I was hospitalized. I am now in my mid 20s.

When I think back to that time, I honestly cannot remember what started it. I can remember various stressors that most like helped to trigger the ED, but I can't remember thinking that I was worried about my weight, or trying to avoid food. It was almost like waking up one morning having lost all of this weight, and having not eaten in so long that the very thought of food made me ill, and I couldn't keep it down if I wanted to (no bullemia or purposfull vomiting- food literally made me sick at that point).

Do you remember what/when your ED started? Did it seem to come out of no where, or did you realize (on some level) that you were doing this, even if you didn't see it as a disease or problem?