September 16th, 2009

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I'm in a partial-hospitalization-program (12 hours a day, 5 days a week!) for my anorexia right now.  I'm almost 5 weeks into the program and have another 4-5 to go.  Right now I'm having this odd issue- EVERYTHING (muscle and bone and skin-wise) from the waist up just hurts all the time.  Stomach muscles, back muscles, arm bones, back muscles, surface skin, you name it.  It feels like the day after when you've worked out for the first time in weeks and you go way too hard and too long.  This has been going on for at least the last 3 or 4 weeks.  My doctor said there's no "real" cause for it.  I'm not exercising at all, and haven't been since I started the program.  The doctor suggested it's all physological and just anxiety.  Now, I've been anxious since I was born, and I don't FEEL that much more anxious than I have been before, but I don't know...  Of course, I'm eating way more than I was before I started treatment, but I have no clue if that could be influencing this. 
Anyone have any clue what's going on with me?  I'm open to any suggestions!  Thank you guys!