skinnygurl3 (skinnygurl3) wrote in ed_ucate,


Part 1

--Age: 18

--Gender: female

--How I found my way here: heard about it from another ed lj community

--Questions/comments/concerns: so far, love the community- so much more "real" than others i've been to and members post intelligent questions

Part 2 (disordered members only)


--Diagnosed/Self-diagnosed?: self-diagnosed

[X] binging (more than ~800 calories per sitting)
[X] restricting (under 900 calories a day)
[X] purging (vomit, laxative, diuretic, enema) after binging
[X] purging (vomit, laxative, diuretic, enema) without binging
[_] excessively exercising after eating
[_] chewing and spitting
[_] obsession with "pure" food
[X] terror of gaining weight
[X] self-worth based on looks or weight
[X] missing period
[X] I answered the question below

What do you feel is the difference between your attitudes/behaviors and those of someone who has normal insecurities about her body?
They've definitely become a major part of my life- it seems i'm always thinking about food and calories much more so than any normal person. i can get very anxious before meals with other people or situations where i need to eat to seem normal. at school (im currently home for the summer from college) i would plan things during meal times so i wouldn't have to go to the dining hall with everyone, so there's the antisocial thing. when i lose weight, it's never enough. purging also messed me up (as in, i can't seem to stop). i don't think that non-disordered people have these anxieties nor do they throw up their food constantly.

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