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Part 1

--Age:15
--Gender:female

--How I found my way here:link

--Questions/comments/concerns:This seems like a great community, one which is aware of the reality of an illness.I'm trying to recover, though I've only started last week. And also trying to convince my father I have an illness not just imagining things so that I can receive professional help. The thing is, I'm an emotional eater at times, so I'm not sure if I'm ED-NOS or a Compulsive Overeater. My first post had me being only ED-NOS, but today I've been thinking more on the subject.. and thought I should redo this.


Part 2 (disordered members only)

--ED:ED-NOS, or compulsive overeater?

--Diagnosed/Self-diagnosed?:self-diagnosed

--Questionnaire:
[ ] binging (more than ~800 calories per sitting)
[x] restricting (under 900 calories a day)
[x] purging (vomit, laxative, diuretic, enema) after binging
[ ] purging (vomit, laxative, diuretic, enema) without binging
[x] excessively exercising after eating
[x] chewing and spitting
[x] obsession with "pure" food
[x] terror of gaining weight
[x] self-worth based on looks or weight
[_] missing period -it goes and comes back every few months-
[X] I answered the question below

What do you feel is the difference between your attitudes/behaviors and those of someone who has normal insecurities about her body?
I think about my weight to the point where that's all that occupies my mind. If I haven't eaten that day, or too much then I'm happy. If I have then I throw up, exercise, and/or severely restrict. I'm extremely paranoid at times, such as in a mall I think "oh my gosh! I feel so sorry for people having to see a fat cow like me! Oh, she's so skinny!". More importantly, food is the way I abuse my body, whether it's a binge or restricting, I control what happens to my body. A normal person with insecurities about their body will be upset and obsess about their weight, however, they usually don't abuse they're body -or abuse it to the point where they get sick-, and can't stop.

--Questionnaire for Compulsive Overeater:
[1] Do you eat more food in a binge than most people would eat in the same amount of time? Yes
[2] Do you lose control during the binge episode? Yes
[3] You don't compensate (purge/lax/fast) for these binges? sometimes I do compensate, right now I have been, it changes. Sorry to be so unclear, but really thats how it is.. I may eat 500 cal's each day for a week, then binge and have say 700 cal's and just be so tired that I'll just lay in bed feeling sick.
[4] Have you been binging at least twice a week for six months? well, a binge to me can be anywhere from 300-800 cal's at one time...usually thats at the end of the day when I haven't eaten anything and am emotional. It used to be more often, where I'd eat maybe up too 1,000 cal's tops in say 4 hours, and that'd be the only food I'd have though.. Now I more frequently restrict from 300-800 cal's. It depends on how I am mentally, I may exercise and throw up and restrict. I've been at 148 for months, well, it may have gone down at sometime but I have no scale. I was 123-5 (5'4, or 5'5) and after gaining and losing many times, I'd binge one time a day and went up from something like 127 to 139 then to 147 in 4 or 5 months. Sorry, I know this is seriously long, and very different from my first version of posting, but, I think it was needed, I would truly appreciate your opinions.
Thankyou


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