So...I have a medical question. I'm not sure if it relates to my eating disorder, but it deals with my heart. It's kind of hard to explain...I'll do my best.
Sometimes in my sleep, my heart starts to race and pump furiously, and I cannot breathe. I wake up to a semi-conscious state and I tell myself, Amy, breathe, just breathe, but I can't. My heart is pumping, lurching, racing. I feel like I'm suffocating. This goes on for about 1 1/2 minutes and then finally I take a gasp of air. Then it repeates throughout the night. I usually don't fall back asleep. I have to willingly take deep and long breathes. It really scares me.
It doesn't happen every night...usually when I have been restricting more than usual or my body is feeling drained. So maybe it has something to do with my eating disorder.
I mentioned this to my mom and she said not to worry, that I'm just having panic attacks in my sleep. Not to worry? I feel like I'm dying! And panic attacks...I'm not so sure. I mean, I could be dreaming about something stressful when it happens..I don't know.
I guess it could be a form of sleep apnea, but again, I don't think so. I don't snore or really have any other symptoms of sleep apnea.
I know I should see a doctor. But it happens in my sleep, how will they tell me what's wrong, if anything is wrong. And I hate doctors. Ahhh...I know I should get over my personal vendetta against them...eh.
Does this happen to anyone else? Thanks so much :)