So here we go. When I used to binge, I would get very, very turned on. I would get the usual funny butterfly feelings and my lady parts would wake up and be like, "Hey there! How YOU doin'?" And then, 9 times out of 10, after I would vomit, I would find myself to be erm.. lubricated. Now please don't get me wrong and think that I was bulimic because I'm some crazy fetishist and that I like being thrown up on or something. This whole bit never started happening until I was about four months into being a full-fledged bulimic, and they continued for the next few years until I got help when I was 17.
So has this ever happened to anybody, or can someone give me some insight as to why it happened to me? The best I can come up with was that the b/p gave me such a rush of excitement, and I knew in my head that I wasn't supposed to be eating and I wasn't supposed to be throwing it up, but I did it anyway, and this maybe corresponded to my body physically getting turned on because of the taboo that I placed upon myself? I'm not really sure, to be honest, which is why I'm here.
Anyway yes, feedback? Please tell me I'm not a crazy, psychotic person with a subconscious affinity for sexualizing vomit. :(