crystal_clear13 (crystal_clear13) wrote in ed_ucate,

Question about feeding when hospitalized.

I've been really nervous about asking this question... For the past three months I've been in a half-recovery, such really puts me in the ED-NOS category. I've been purging still, skipping meals, etc, but I've eaten things that I was scared to even smell when anorexic. But I feel recovery isn't working... I can't convince myself that I was even sick before-- I was just a little underweight (although I was medically diagnosed with purging anorexia). I guess because I wasn't hospitalized, I feel I wasn't sick...

So, this is the disturbing part leading to the question. I want to lose 20-25 pounds by May. I am 5'9" and I would be about 95-100 (BMI about 14.8). When I was anorexic, I only wanted to be 115. I got to 116 before my husband dragged me to a doctor. I know he will have me hospitalized if I got to 95-100. For some strange reason, I want that... it's like then I can accept that I am an anorectic.

My question: If you've been hospitalized, were you tube-fed? If so, what was your BMI? I think that's the part that scares me the most.

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