But to my question. I'm currently having extreme anxiety when it comes to eating anything in front of people, especially going out (ie to a restaurant, a club, or the cinema with friends). I have my own little rituals that help me feel safe, & generally as long as I follow them, I'm okay. However, any small deviation from routine (such as eating out) sends me into panic. This entry: http://community.livejournal.com/ed_ucate/181493.html was particularly helpful in understanding that this is a relatively normal part of eating disorders, & having been diagnosed with OCD before, I can accept that. But my question to you, is how do I overcome this?
I am isolating myself from my friends, despite so desperately wanting to be with them. Being so isolated only reinforced my disordered behaviours. If I know going out is going to even remotely involve food, I refuse to come. How do I get past this? Have any of you experienced this, & if so, how have you overcome it? There has got to be a better solution than locking myself up at home, right?
Thankyou in anticipation.
♥ Katie xx