I wonder who'd be there instead,
I’m just so used to being you
I’m not too sure what I would do.
I’d have to fill so long each day
With other thoughts than what I weigh,
You wouldn’t tell me how to act –
Alone, my mind is not intact.
You’ve been a part of me for years;
You’re there behind my hopes and fears.
You’ve been the founder of my dreams,
And filled the gap between my seams.
You’ve been my constant for so long
The only thing I know is never wrong –
At least, that’s how it seems to be,
What I believe, what you’ve told me.
You showed me how to gain control,
You pushed me hard, you set me goals,
But always moved them out of view
When I came near to pleasing you.
Now I’m so scared of letting go,
Not sure I really want to know
The sort of person I’d become
Without you telling me I’m scum.