groovetrain (groovetrain) wrote in ed_ucate,
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Who knows about your ED?

Who knows about your ED? I live at home, so obviously my parents and brother know, and one or two friends besides that (one of those friends also has an ED). Does anyone else keep their ED/ED recovery particularly private? I have a lot of friends and family who don't know. Is there anyone particularly close to you (a spouse, family member, best friend, teacher, etc.) who doesn't know about your ED? If yes, why do you choose not to tell them?

I chose not to because I am ashamed. The stigma of an eating disorder contrasts with the persona I exude. And, I don't consider myself "double-faced." This outer persona is true to me...aside from my ED, I appear and for the most part AM secure, confident, independent, my own person. I've also almost always been known as naturally thin. I didn't/don't like to admit this weakness that goes against my image, particulary because this image isn't fake or just a facade. I start college in the Fall, and I am contemplating not telling anyone at all and starting over new. I guess I may seem somewhat in denial (I am not) but I think this is how I want to deal with it. A part of me feels that if I don't acknowledge the ED's existence, it will go away...although I know this is not true. Has anyone ever been in a similar situation?
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