Question: How would you best describe the thoughts and feelings of an eating disordered person(in recovery)?
The reason I want to know is, that since my recovery-trip began eight months ago I have been asked over and over again how someone as aware as I am can have an eating disorder. How I can be aware of what I am doing to myself, and still want to engage in such behaviour.
How do you best explain that you don't want to do this, and that it is not under your control?
The problem is that I don't know how to explain to them that I don't want to starve myself, and that I am struggling every second of the day to stop these thoughts and feelings that makes me want to seek comfort in my eating disordered behaviour.
How do you best explain the struggle, the exhaustion of fighting your ED 24/7?
Considering my own situation, I believe that comments concerning Anorexia Nervosa would be most helpful in my quest to educate my family, but I am interested in all answers and encourage you all join the discussion.