don't know if this is the spot, but you should read it anyway. it's short.

Not thinking depressedly, there is a never a point in time that I don't contemplate stepping in front of a large moving vehicle or throwing myself down high flights of steps. Basically causing inordinate amounts of physical pain.

I'm not certain why, but I have had an overwhelming desire to do so for many years. I feel like it might be related to the issues I deal with, but who knows? edit: does anyone feel their eds have any bearings on this, as I feel mine may contribute to my problem

Any thoughts?

(nessa/hb, do what you will with this.)