Megan (starved_for_u) wrote in ed_ucate,

It's been a long time since I last posted to livejournal as I've only just realised that, while I once considered myself fully recovered, I'm still at risk of relapse. This being a product of several lifestyle changes, returning to uni, chronic illness and financial stress to the extent that I neglected to take particular attention to look after my nutritional needs. I am at the stage of "contemplating change," whereby I realise that unless I start eating now I'm likely to spend the next four years succumbed to anoh-wreck-sia's tight grasp. And I am determined not to let that happen.

My questions/comments for you guys:
1. I didn't knowingly relapse.. I figured I was healthy and out of the danger zone, so I stopped caring so much. Has anyone else had this happen? And, Does. It. Ever. Stop?!
2. Do you ever feel like a failure for going through the same old processes and still feel like you're not getting anywhere?
3. Is it possible to relapse physically, but not emotionally? I skip meals, yes, but I'm still relatively alert and capable. A little stressed about schoolwork but nothing compared to the last few years. The driving force behind my behaviours is generally "too little time, too much effort etc." I know I'm making excuses but as yet it's not the classic "argh! too many calories!!"
4. Do you find that exercise helps? I've been warned not to partake in physical activity until my weight has stabalised, but in the past I've found it to improve my energy levels and general well-being. I'm eager to give it a shot, but cautious of over-exercising.

Any feedback would be greatly appreciated!

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