lightasabrick (lightasabrick) wrote in ed_ucate,

Out of Nowhere

So, I like to consider myself close to "recovered" (if that is possible) BUT the other day, I was talking with my fiance, and asked him how I looked.

You know the conversation that goes like this:
You: Do I look like I have gained weight?
Him: No, you look great
You: Yeah but I mean do I look any different, bigger or smaller?
Him: No, I told you, you look the same
You: Are you sure, because I HAVE gained weight, can you tell?
Him: I am not talking about this anymore.

Anyways, I asked him the question and it started out the same way but then he said, well I will be honest with you, yes you do look like you have gained some weight but it looks fine.

It was like time stopped. I do not know how to deal with this. In a split second all I could think was "restrict" and today it's like I have taken a complete recovery turn around.

Similar experiences, how do I deal with this?
I know that recovery for some people does mean gaining weight and being a higher weight, but how do you become okay with this??

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